Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Life, blocked.

I spend most of the day at work. I'm too tired to do anything when I go home. Whatever is to be done is done in a hurry, or pushed to the weekend. So basically I'm living life in the weekend. Or am I? Whatever.

I have no time to read a novel. No time to listen to music. (I try to do it after going home, but my sis is, ahem, studying so its a no-go.) What is this? The only thing left is for me to be bound and gagged! Wow... I wonder if that's going to happen. I know I'm complaining. But to whom? Who is it that reads my blog and understands what I'm going through? A lot of people I guess. I doubt if I know any of them. And if any of them even cares. Heck, forget it, I'm just being silly.

I actually enjoy working here. Its only the times when I get stuck with some really stupid work that I think of leaving this job and joining some college as a lecturer. When the work is challenging, and not just a stupid log capture, I feel great to be working on the problem. Work was like that for the last couple of months. We had a new project and we worked our a$ off for three months. I wasn't really happy with the work I was doing. The usual problems of miscommunication between the time zones. And I was not experienced either. There are a lot of things I learnt during the course of this project. I should thank my team mates for that. Especially Bala bhai.

At the end of the whole thing, someone asked me about my level of job satisfaction. I didn't say immediately. They didn't let me complete my answer. You know how it is with the management. They ask you something, and if they get a hint that your answer might be embarrassing for them, they cut you short. I just told them that it was a good learning experience for me. Diplomatic, you might say.

And now for the paradox. Its a known fact that the traffic in this city is going to the dogs. You would expect anyone coming to office on his bike to be delayed by the traffic. Compared to coming by train that is. And yes, it was the case for most of the time. I traveled with RC for a few days on his bike. The pollution and the time taken for the drive almost killed me. No Harsh, I did not get any strokes of asthma. I switched back to the train. The result? RC starts from office around the time I reach Hitec City station, and reaches office before me. WTH? Makes me want to pick up my bike from tomorrow and come directly to office instead of hanging in that overcrowded train. I can't believe I used to find a seat on the train almost everyday. I read so many books on the way to office and back. Now its just impossible.

That reminds me... it's been an year since I began working here. One whole year. And what did I achieve? Won a Harry Potter quiz. Maybe thats the only noteworthy thing I did. I should start listening to Harsh. Hey... start with the advise already!

Aah... these are a few of the days I take the weight off my head and relax. This state won't last long though. I'd get bored if I didn't do anything either. Looks like we have something relatively big coming our way soon. Looking forward to that. Ciao.

Disclaimer: All views expressed in this post are my own and do not reflect the opinion of my company and all such crap. :P

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Back on track

Just so you know, I'm still alive.

I must be bored of saying this over and over to many people, who are too busy to even care. But I say it anyway. I just like saying it, I guess. Just to maintain that connection with my past. My heart harbours the faint hope that the past will become part of the future too. Its difficult to entirely let go of your friends. No, not difficult... almost impossible. And it should stay that way.

Its good to be back on track. Finally, work has started to become interesting. I just hope the pressure doesn't build up till I pop. I hate pressure. I like working at my own sweet pace. You must know that already, if you know me.

Well, enough rambling for today. I don't actually feel like writing much nowadays. I don't know... have I lost my blogging instincts? Be that as it may, I just wanted to share with you something that has been keeping me company all these days. Something that I could always rely on to make me relax and enjoy even the dullest moments in life. What is that, you ask? Music!

Yeah, I have some good music stashed away on a share, so I can access it from anywhere. Unfortunately (or otherwise) , most of it is Anime soundtracks. I just love listening to the instrumental tracks while reading, working or even walking home from the rail station. Just like the missing background music from my own life, I might say.

So here you have it... you can download it from here. If you want that is. If you do, post me a comment. If you don't, just do it anyway. A piece of anyone's mind is better than nothing.



http://www.box.net/shared/y29vosdit7

Monday, April 09, 2007

Purpose

"There's no escaping reason, no denying purpose -
because as we both know, without purpose, we would not exist.

It is purpose that created us,
Purpose that connects us,
Purpose that pulls us,
That guides us,
That drives us,
It is purpose that defines,
Purpose that binds us.

We're here because of you, Mister Anderson, we're here to take
from you what you tried to take from us. Purpose."


Whether they managed to take back from him what he took from them, is a question of perspective. If you believe that by destroying the only man who stood in their way, they stole his purpose, I should disagree with you. Because his purpose was to destroy them, and he did so by his own destruction. What a climax.


Few movies make us think about life the way the Matrix does. It shows us the possibilities of a future in which humans have lost their purpose, and live (live?) only to be fed upon by machines.Is this our true purpose?

I always maintain that the Terminator and the Matrix are two parts of the same story. First comes the Rise of the Machines, and then comes the domination of humankind. Then come the Revolutions, and then finally, victory.

Well then, what was the purpose of these movies? Was it to make us think? Or was it just to make bucks at the box office? This again, is a matter of perspective.

This is my perspective. If you have yours to share, you're welcome!
(Another of the posts from my now extinct third blog. Imported here to keep the content from disappearing. )

Monday, January 08, 2007

My first New Year *not* as a student!

After a long time, we meet again.
I just realized this is my first post in the brand new year of 2007. Yay!

The new year was quite eventful, considering we hadn't planned anything. Just on the morning of Dec 31st, the ladies in our building decide we need to have a party. So we had one. Nothing special. Home cooked food, and a cake. Ah, yes! Leftover crackers from Diwali.

All these days I was there, you were there. But we never met. What a shame.
Sars accuses me of not meeting the guys regularly. As if he does. Now that he is also *free* like I am, he should have more time on hand. Never mind. I accept. I didn't come to meet the guys every weekend. Poor Harsh calls me up every week. Every week, it is either too late or i'm not at home.

So yesterday, when Kunal bhai, Bhave, Sars, Kishen and I met at Kishen's place it was after a long time that we all met. Me included. The only one missing was W.

Speaking of W, he gave me quite a shock recently. Of all the people in the world, he bought an Apache! Looks like I have to go back to the drawing board. I haven't been able to decide on which bike to buy. That is just one of the reasons I didn't buy one yet.

Anyway, getting back to the topic of us meeting yesterday, Kunal wanted the college videos so I made him a copy on Kishen's system. Harsh wanted to test his new DVD drive on his new laptop... and he flicked my original DVD. God knows when i'll be getting that back.

By the way, we called up Shravan yesterday from a nearby Net2Phone center. He seems quite well. Seems Maanas paid him a visit for New Year. He wasn't awake yet when we tried to call him though.

Pavan is coming to Hyderabad this weekend. There is simply no way he would miss Sankranthi and kites! He might even go to the length of using up his remaining leave to come and fly kites. The "pichi patang" from last year has us all looking forward to it too... it was a tremendously hilarious and entertaining exercise!

Okay then, lets get back to reality. I have a session to attend now and I can't let my attention wander around for long. Heres to a fun-filled and brilliant Sankranthi.

And to all whom I haven't wished yet, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!


Kunal bhai: Kya hai yaro tum!
Harsh: Itteech re hamari dosti!